Can someone tell me why it’s so hard to be a parent of a zodiac child? Is it really that hard to be loving and kind like Hiro and Kagura’s families? The abuse, the hatred, the neglect, all of it I’m sick of it! And as if Akito couldn’t be any worse, I’m seriously boiling over this. I’m so angry.
Up there with Hanajima’s episode from season one, this episode was dark, unsettling, and downright depressing. At least Hana had a happy ending to her episode, I’m just filled with grief for Rin. I wasn’t too sure what to make of Rin’s character from before as she would appear and disappear, and she seemed so angry. I didn’t have much of an opinion of her because I didn’t know anything about her, but now I’m just like Tohru where I want to run over to Rin and just give her the biggest hug. ;~;
This episode continues to prove that Hatsuharu is seriously one of the best boys in this show, and also a shoutout to Kazuma as well. We learned quite a bit about Rin, and while she has a hard and intimidating exterior, she’s really just a teenage girl who is suffering from anxiety and PTSD daily from the abuse and near-death experience she’s suffered in the past. She’s a lonely and scared individual, wanting to be accepted even though she’s accepted loneliness in order to protect the one she loves. We now know that she’s desperate to somehow find a way to break the curse, for probably two reasons. The main reason would be to break the curse from herself and Haru so they don’t have to be tied down with the Soma family and their connection with Akito, so they can live a life normally together in love. I have a feeling another reason why Rin would want to break her curse is so maybe she can have another chance with her parents. It’s sad because she probably still wants to have a normal family life again and she blames herself and her curse for ruining everything, even though it’s absolutely not her fault. I’d wager that Rin thinks that if she’s not cursed anymore that she can have a life with her parents again, but honestly the damage is done.
These people were so easy to dispose their own child that I don’t even sense love from them. It’s so annoying how most zodiac children either deal with suicidal/hateful parents or overprotective ones, and at this point it’s driving me insane. We know that not all of them are like that as we can see with Hiro’s family, Kagura and her mom, and Kisa and her mom (who I assume is much healthier mentally now). We can say that the abusive and neglectful families is starting to become a tired trope, and I think I’d agree, but it really does show the horrors of this family and what can be kept secret. One thing that did strike me weird in Rin’s flashback was a woman with long black hair like hers talking to Rin, but we never saw her face. We have no clue who she is, I could maybe take a guess but I’m not sure but it’s something to keep note of.
Akito…at this point, I don’t give a single shit if Akito ends up having a horrible childhood because I just don’t care. It’s gotten to the point where I immediately get furious just seeing their face, but this time I was physically nauseous. First off, I’m not sure how it came to be that Akito knew Rin and Haru were dating. Did they find out themself, did someone tell Akito, or did Rin straight up told Akito herself? The last one I doubt since she even said she knew that Akito would be angry if they found out they were dating, and that she was afraid of Akito as well. Either way, it was made very clear that Akito can literally do anything and the Soma cult clan will still remain loyal and obedient to this pile of trash. Oh, and that Akito hates women so much and it shows because Akito seems to be much more violent towards women. Maybe has to do with that Ren woman she hates so much? Still, I don’t care. We’ve seen Akito do some awful horrible things, but pushing someone out the window with the intent to murder is by far the worse thing to happen and I hope it’s the worst thing Akito has done but I don’t even fucking know anymore. Akito said Rin was a waste and was taking up a spot, making it sound like she was easily disposable so absolutely was pushing her out the window intended to kill her instead of…a warning of her wrath? I don’t even know what I’m saying anymore.
And I know pushing Rin out of the window was the worst part, but I still boil with anger with how cruel Akito was to Rin leading up to that. Again, Rin is a very fragile girl who emotionally and mentally hasn’t recovered from her past trauma. She’s incredibly sensitive, and it broke my heart that she willingly took the bullet that she was the one that “seduced” one of Akito’s possessions (FUCK YOU) and took the abuse instead, to protect Haru. But what killed me the most was after the slap, Rin still stood her ground but was shaking, and crying, and was deathly afraid of Akito so much that she couldn’t even look them in the eye. And Akito laughs and toys with her emotions, calls her worthless and unneeded with a sickening pleasure, and hatred. And that was the part that made me nauseous because it was so horrific and disgusting. The pushing out the window part just sealed the deal that Akito is completely irredeemable and a pure monster and just looking at Akito sends me into a rage. I can’t remember the last time I hated a character to this extent, and I mean hate. And it’s funny, Akito trying to kill someone shouldn’t have come as a huge surprise to me but it really did shock me. I’m just speechless.
But hey let’s talk about Hatsuharu because he’s the shining light from this episode. I was wondering if anyone was going to say anything to Rin’s parents in the hospital and of all of them, it was Haru and I actually clapped. I love him!! I just love him so much, how loving and caring and selfless he is to so many of the characters. He’s just so wonderful and whatever stuff Shadow says about him because I agree! You can feel his love for Rin is sincere and genuine, and seeing Rin’s happiness at that sent my heart soaring. Finally for once in her life she found someone that actually wanted her, but because of the incident she decided to push that feeling away to protect Haru. And yet, Rin is a very selfless person herself and she wants to protect Haru and hopefully save him and herself as well. I’m not sure if Rin will ever find her answer, but I hope she can receive some sort of help and Tohru is right there for her.
I wasn’t sure about Rin before but she’s there with Momiji as the babies that needs hugs and protection. I hope she drops the cold attitude and seeks support from others and also makes up with Haru but who knows. This was a tough episode to watch but I still really enjoyed it. It’ll be great to see the followup episode after this to see what kind of impact Tohru will have on Rin.